I'm here...

....I am so tired and am going to bed right after this post. But I wanted to say hi and sorry that I haven't been posting much.

I would love to hear from you. Missing all of my bloggie buddies! Tell me your here still reading my corner on the web.

Sweet Dreams,

A Night.

I am going to keep this short tonight.

I am sitting on my bed. Listening to Carole explaining that I don't wear any of my "cute" clothes. She is trying on a dress I bought last spring asking me why I didn't buy a small.

Hmmm, apparently she wanted me to wear it on my head because a small wouldn't cut it. But, a small would fit her perfectly. *Smile* The girl makes me laugh hard she is now. Relaying to me that my lamp is so bright and just when I went to write that my light bulb blew! Too funny! We started laughing as I huffed saying now I will have to find a light bulb and she said "I can see again!" *Laughing so hard*

Well, we are in pj's and watching a Disney movie. Ahhh I feel like we are seven and nine again! It's great!

I just love my little sister.

Wedding plans are coming out well.

Did I mention my dress came in??

It's so pretty!

Lapus purple.

I am also shower planning! It's proving to be so fun!!

You all have a great night!

*Dream*

I believe I was fourteen years old when I realized deep in the core of my heart a dream was forming.

I remember I was sitting on the couch with my Winnie The Pooh slippers donning my feet resting them on the trunk that served as as a decoration in the middle of our living room. My fingers were decorated with rings as my hair held many butterfly clips and I sat there a picture of early teen syndrome. Oh, come on don't tell me you weren't a victim of fashion don'ts. I think every teen girl goes through that time when they feel they know it all including the latest fashions. Of course, what I was saying with my fashion was what not to wear but we can explain all that in another post.

I remember watching a show and a commercial came on. Everyone has seen these commercials in the past. An older gentlemen walking the street of a forsaken country holding a hand of an adorable boy as the camera takes a close up at his bare swollen feet walking on the rock covered dusty road.

My heart did a belly flop thing as my eyes finally saw the commercial I had seen a million times before my ears finally heard what the man was talking about and my heart grasp passion and hope of adopting and has never let go.

I have mention a million times over my desire to adopt.

And as of late I have been more vocal about it.

It's not just a dream anymore it's a goal that with God's help I will meet.

I believe God has placed this hope in my heart for a reason.

I believe God has given me a mommy's heart for babies with no homes.

When I was fourteen a dream was born. I remember getting things from Compassion in the mail. There would be pictures of children to sponsor at the time I had no job and could not sponsor but I could pray. I would post the pictures on my bulletin board in my room.

I remember Carole coming up laughing wondering what I was doing and I would say Carole one day I am going to adopt. A few months ago I mentioned adoption on Facebook and Carole wrote this on my status it melted my heart.

"I remember when you first told me you wanted to adopt....i think it was the day when I saw that awfully sad looking picture of this little girl from "feed the children" hanging on your wall and i asked why in the world did you have that in your room and you told me that you were going to adopt a little girl like that one day. I think @ the time I thought you were NUTS! lol! But now I understand what you meant. :) I LOVE you Ginger the Lord has given you such a sweet gift you will someday make a wonderful mommy to a little boy or girl who needs to be loved! I just know it!!!"

I just started reading this book it's called Choosing to See. And I didn't think I could want to adopt anymore than already did until I started reading the words this incredible lady penned on paper. I said to my mom. "I now want to adopt even more." I feel it even stronger I know this is what I want and what God wants me to do."

My mom said to me "Ginger, I know one day I will have many beautiful grandchildren from all around the world."

I have had people laugh at me when I share my heart about adopting. I don't know if people realize they are truly laughing at my heart when they shake their head and give me a patronizing smile.

I don't think people often think for a second how they would feel if they were in that position. I know I am learning that lesson now not in adoption I have always wanted adopt. But in other things life has thrown my way lately it's one thing no of a situation and have compassion but it's quite another to be going through a trial yourself.

I wanted to post this today because today on yet another snow day I have just been pondering about my goal about, my love for children, and about thinking of love. And I just wanted to share it with you.

So, what has been your dream?

My Lord Loves ME!

And oh do I love Him.

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"Lord, I just don't know?"

I sat on my bed holding my little blue phone. I guess in ways my phone has become my blankie. *Smile* I tend to always carry it. Just because. But then again I guess everyone always are carrying their iphone,touch pad, blackberry,palm pilot etc...and so on.

"Lord, I'm just...I know..I"

And ever so clearly in the hush of my bedroom as I sat on my bed discourage...

in my heart I heard... "Come unto me and I will give you rest"

I smiled.

I sighed.

And then I continued to pray.

"Lord, thank you for being here. Thank you for loving me."

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It's so awesome to have the Lord on your side isn't?


I just wanted to post, I wanted to say hi and just wanted to share that my God is a great God!

Obeying

As I have explained in the previous post our family is walking in a valley. This valley can be scary and downright humbling all at the same time.

I know God will see us through He always does. But when your in the valley.

Life just seems so different.

I tend to long for the days when I was 16.

In all my teen years sixteen always stands out to me.

That was the birthday I had a tiara on my head and a white rose in my hand.

I felt OLD! It was great!

I always wanted to be sixteen. It was such a mature age.

But what I remember most about being sixteen is obeying a command I ignored for years...

I don't always tell this story to everyone because in some ways I get embarrassed.

Being raised in a Baptist home, attending church your whole life, getting saved at an early age you just automatically think you would have obey the command of being baptized after salvation. Well, not me.

My parents never pushed the issue they wanted the decision to be mine not theirs. So I went through my childhood not being baptized.

I knew being baptized didn't mean I would go to Heaven being saved meant you were going to Heaven so I didn't feel shy little me needed to get baptized.

Well, my sister Carole was in the same boat and we sailed together for quite a while until the summer I was sixteen...

We had been in a new state, a new home and new church for two years when the Holy Spirit would not let Carole and I rest we were both fighting the truth for a while until we couldn't take it any longer.

Carole went first (Of course) Carole may be the younger one but in some things she has always been leader. (Which has been good for me) And went up to the pastor and said she knew she needed to be baptized and join the church. I followed "I do too!"

The next week Carole and I met with the pastor and the associate pastor at the time and told of when we got saved and why we wanted to obey God and be baptized. I wrote in my journal that afternoon. "I did it! I talk to Pastor and I am getting baptized! I'm thrilled I am now obeying the Lord's command"

That summer has always meant so much to me.

I will never forget standing in the middle of lake with my pastor knowing I was doing the Lord's command by being baptized. (Journal entry)August,31,2003 "Yes,yes, yes I am baptized I'm part of a church, I am so happy! I'm thrilled! Now, I'll be active in the church!"

It's funny in the beginning I mentioned being embarrassed. It's not because I was baptized it's how long it took me to obey God's will and get baptized after salvation. But I finally obeyed and it felt as though a burden was lifted from me.

It's such a sweet memory though.

You may ask what does this have to do with my family traveling through a valley in our life. Well it has everything to do with. I know we just need to keep trusting God obeying His will and He will see us through. He always does and He always will.

Side note: I appreciate the emails and the comments. Please continue to pray!

~Love~Prayer~and some yogurt~

When we came to that time to humble ourselves before the Lord and cry out. "Lord, I need you. I need you in my heart. I need you to forgive me of my sins. I need you" He came in took you by the hand and said "I will never leave you." However, he did not say "You will never have another trial in your life again."

Sometimes we wish He would say that but the fact of the matter is He warned us that there will be trials, there will be times where you need to cry out to the Lord "Why? How? Please? Help?"

In our neck of the woods we are having a major snow storm. School, was called off and I was able to sleep in a while. I am now sitting here at the kitchen table jammies still on an empty Yoplait Cherry Pomegranate yogurt beside me and thoughts...lots of thoughts keeping me company.

Jeremy was sitting beside me for a while he toddled in here in his Toy Story slippers clutching onto his Mickey Mouse sippie cup while he grunted until I help him on the bench next to me. He eyed my yogurt and put out his out reached hand until I gave him a bite and then another. He sat back pleased, contented. He rested his head on my shoulder with out care in the world.

I started thinking about how Jeremy is such a blessing to our family how when we are at our wits end Jeremy makes us laugh until we are crying.

Again I am sitting in the kitchen listening to my mom read to Jeremy Carole laughing at his antics, Aaron and Dad mulling around the house and me tapping away at my computer.

Our family has landed in a path in our life and that path is not on a mountain top but it's in a valley yes a deep valley.

I can't explain this valley.

But I need everyone to pray.

Please pray.

No time....

...for blogging...

As you can see I have been more neglecting this blog then ever before and I knew it was bound to happen.

A thing call life happened and I am just trying to keep up with the pace "life" has ruled out for me.

As I am running the race through a few things are in my midst one being Carole's wedding shower.

Yes, it is time.

The time I have been waiting for.

The time I have been thinking about.

The time for showers.

My mind is wondering and planing and thinking...

My ideas are forming...I am having a blast!

I am also planing for my very first kindergarten graduation all be myself! This has proven to be a fun, fun project as well.

I can't wait to start elaborating both events to you painting a picture making you feel as though you will be attending bot two big events in my life.

But for now my note book is filling up with each new idea that pops in my mind.


So, on this Sunday afternoon, I am planning on showers,graduations, and other fun stuff.

What are you doing?

Happy New Year!

From, Ginger and Jeremy and the rest of Pieces Of My Heart....